when i look closely at what is happening around me, i can’t help but wonder how humans have strayed so far from the natural world & erased every ounce of soul within themselves to fit into a crippling codependent culture operating on self sacrifice & external validation.
how did an entire society become conditioned to believe everyone must think, act, dress, eat, look, live & feel the same way? why do humans choose a life of unwavering obedience & slavery over total freedom? why do adults need other adults making decisions for them?
i’ve asked myself these questions often throughout my life. experience & a lot of heartache gave me the answer.
FEAR. people are afraid of being ostracized by society & taking responsibility for their own happiness. blaming others for your suffering & relying on someone else to solve your problems is easier than solving them yourself because the solution requires inner work on your part and that’s the toughest (also the most rewarding) job of all. it is messy & painful & requires you to look at everything you’ve avoided up to now & get honest with yourself about who you are & what you want when who you are & what you want looks & feels VERY different from the character you’ve been playing. it is scary to leave behind an expired version of you & leap into the unknown without a safety net.
i have felt the fear deep in my bones & know how debilitating it can be. i let fear dictate my choices when i trembled in my truth. i was stabbed in the back by people i trusted for unapologetically standing in my power. i’ve been the target of many evil eyes after refusing to dim my own light for their comfort. i know what it feels like to navigate a wicked world without another person by my side.
i’ve also learned that solitude is where the magic happens. the people who made it easy to walk away were angels in disguise, showing me the path home to my inner world, where i found strength, courage, a compass & unwavering devotion to my soul.
i love you.
xo,
zella