for the first time in my life, i don’t need to be in solitude to feel free.
i never thought i’d actually feel this way. flying solo is all i really know & solitude is my happy place, the only territory i’ve genuinely wanted to reside.
i avoided serious relationships my whole life because they always seemed to come with conditions requiring me to be someone i’m not. so, i skipped right over the chapter of fairy tale romance in my book with high hopes to one day return & write the greatest love story ever told.
i’ve traveled foreign lands alone & retreated to the forest in silence more times than i can count but i’ve never been on a proper vacation with a man or revealed the most intriguing pieces of myself because i’ve been saving them for someone who knows what to do with them.
i needed to heal deep trauma wounds & understand my own power before i felt safe enough to open my heart to a man, even one worthy of my undivided attention.
earlier this year, i made a plan to spend one year in complete silence & solitude beginning in october. but a couple of weeks ago, my intuition told me it’s not going to happen because god has another assignment for me. i had no idea where this out-of-left-field curb ball came from. but i listened & trusted i would receive direction when it was time to take action.
new feelings have been stirring inside of me & ideas i’ve never entertained are creeping into my periphery. my soul is ready for expansion & my heart longs to experience new realms of love.
i want to meet my match. i want to look my soul mate in the eyes & see my masculine counterpart staring back at me. i want to be face to face with my equal & learn how to hold my own with someone who has the same resilience & passion & tenderness as i do. i want to learn how to coexist with a partner & continue growing as an individual with him by my side. i want to climb into every corner of his beautiful brilliant mind & see the world through his eyes. i want to completely surrender to the man capable of holding space for all of me & my wild hearted whims.
this is what i want now.
i love you.
XO
zella